| | I Am NOT Dead!!!
But I certainly have been away a long time! Part of the problem is that Comcast arbitrarily decided to stop accepting my daily subscription digest. And life has been so squirrely that out of sight meant out of mind. So I've changed my e-mail address here, in the hopes that maneuver will foil Comcast and I'll start getting my daily updates from all my friends.
I'll try to bring you up to date quickly and succinctly. It's been a fraught year.
First, and foremost, I had two best friends in high school. One of them was living in Alaska. She had to have quintuple bypass surgery last February, and then wasn't going to be able to live alone, at least not for some time. In the meanwhile, my finances were getting rockier and rockier, and I wanted to try not living alone any more, so I asked her to come live with me. Which she did, as soon as she was able to travel after the operation (and because MediCare only pays for so many days of convalescence ...) She arrived April 19th, went back in the hospital May 1st, was stepped down to a convalescent hospital May 5th ... and died of heart failure on June 16th. It was a desperate, difficult time. And it took a lot out of me -- coping with the grief, and just the physical requirements. I'm beginning to get myself back, but it's been a while.
Her death was a wake-up call for me. She was diabetic, as I am. She watched her diet, monitored her blood sugar, did all the right things. Except get the weight off. (In her defense, she had problems with her foot that made it impossible for her to exercise, and she believed in the Overcoming Overeating theory. It worked for her, but she hadn't lost weight yet.) Although I'm not as overweight as she was, I'm definitely too big for my own good. So I started paying attention to my diet again, started exercising regularly (water aerobics four times a week, walking when I could), started trying to lose weight. I lost 15#, but am back to struggling. Probably because of the next big revelation:
I've discovered that I'm adult ADD. What?! You'd think I would know a thing like that, long before this advanced stage of my life. But I didn't. It's getting worse with age, as so many things do. And it certainly explains a lot about why my life isn't working very well, why I never have enough time, why I can't finish projects, stick to regimes, etc. I'm doing something about it -- I'm in therapy, will probably go on medication to see if that helps, and am trying to find an ADD coach. I'm hopeful that even if I can't ever process time and money like normal people do, I can be better.
So that's where I've been, and what I've been doing. I missed you guys. I'll try to be here a bit more regularly.
It's finally unmistakably fall! A soft rain has been falling since yesterday, and I've got the back door open just enough to listen to the welcome sound of raindrops on fallen leaves. I've made a lovely great stew -- one of my favorite fall and winter dishes. The biscuits are baking now, and then it will be time to curl up in front of the television and enjoy a couple more episodes of Hamish MacBeth!
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| | Posted 11/1/2008 8:35 PM - 44 Views - 0 eProps - 6 comments
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